Breastfeeding has NOT been easy these last few weeks. There have been many nights when I just want to quit, but I know she needs me to nurse her. Neither of us are ready to wean. Night time is the worst, but when she smiles up at me, it makes me so glad that we haven't given up.
She hasn't given up despite my changing milk and dropping supply and I haven't given up despite the pain and hard nights. We both still need this bond and comfort. We both still need the time set aside to nurse throughout the day. The time where we take a break from our busy lives and reconnect (because trust me, she has a VERY busy life!). We both still need the closeness and warm smiles that are exchanged. We both still need the night time cuddles as we doze off to sleep. We both still need this special time together, the last few months of her being an only child. Because soon she's going to be sharing her mommy and I'm going to be dividing my attention between 2 babies. It won't be just us anymore. So for now, we will struggle through with no end in sight and we'll cherish this time together while anxiously awaiting our new little blessing. <3
